I HAVE A JOB

PROS:
-- it's a help desk analyst position, which is a technology job, which is theoretically what i was looking for
-- it pays $17 an hour to start, which totals more than $35,000 a year
-- after a three month probationary period, i'll get full health insurance and a retirement plan
-- i don't need to wear business suits to work

CONS:
-- i feel like i have no idea what i'm doing -- it's way beyond my level of experience/knowledge, dealing with database programming and sql and other things with which i'm unfamiliar
-- it'll take a while for me to learn things well enough to start feeling comfortable; according to the people who hired me, it'll be three months before i feel really secure
-- they gauge our productivity by monitoring the number of problems we solve per day and month, and i will be fairly slow for a while

so i guess it's good that i'm making money (and a lot of it, i guess), but i'm uncomfortable thinking about going to work tomorrow -- i like to know what i'm doing in my job, and when i don't, i get a little anxious. i'm going to press on tomorrow, and hopefully i'll pick up some more details tomorrow by being ambitious and trying to be less concerned about asking questions. i can tell it's going to be very difficult.

on the plus side, the office premiere is tomorrow! score. if you do not watch that show, you should start -- it is hilarious, for example: "i hope the war goes on forever and ryan gets drafted," by dwight schrute. ...it's funnier when you watch it.

i will try to not be miserable about work, in exchange for nice weather on saturday for the farmer's market (like there's a chance it'll be gross outside anyway) and a chance to see across the universe very soon.